SIMPLICITY

RATHER THAN LOVE, THAN MONEY, THAN FAME, GIVE ME TRUTH. - THOREAU-

Monday, September 15, 2008

CONTRIBUTION

Something the psychiatrist said the other day has got me worried, he said something along the lines of “you have plenty of good things in your life – a husband that loves you; a family that loves you; you’re not broke; & you've been able to keep working up until now”. What does that mean – up until now? Does he believe I won’t be able to return to nursing? Will I be relegated to stocking shelves in a grocery store? For all my constant complaints about it, I would be devastated if I could not return to nursing. I want to go back to work….I NEED to go back to work, to feel useful again. If I go see the psychiatrist on Friday & he says I’m still not ‘fit’ to return to work again I’m going to want some answers.

Maybe it's their fear of me having access to dangerous drugs? I know I did say to the CAT team that I would get some insulin & midazolam from work to help complete the job - maybe I have brought this on myself? If so what am I to do now...to BE now? an invalid (IN-VALID)?

1 comment:

Jan Maree said...

It's normal to want something once it is taken from us (denied from us) but remember what you have always wanted to do. Remember- a Poet first.