TRANSFORMATION

Be transformed by the renewing of your mind

-Romans 12:2-

SLEEP

I had nothing that needed to be done today so my alarm wasn't set as per usual - & you know what time I woke up? 2:30 in the afternoon! 17+ hrs sleep. Surely this is not normal & I must be over medicated. It's the last time it'll happen though - I'll be setting my alarm whether I need to or not cause I need to maintain some semblance of structure in my life.

RESIGNATION

Just last week I resigned from my nursing job - I'd been there just on six months. I resigned not only from my position but consciously resigned myself from "nursing" altogether. Nothing against nursing, I just cannot do it - it's too stressful & taxing on me both physically & mentally. I've never really enjoyed nursing in the decade I have been a nurse & I believe that it is one profession that you really do need to "like" to be good at it.

So what now? I have no idea. Prior to getting a "job" I'm going to concentrate on restoring myself a little - be it physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually - cause I've treated myself pretty bad over the last few years.

My recent trip back home had a profound effect on me - I found myself having feelings for my family that I had not had for a very long time. Not that I didn't love my family beforehand it was just that I was somehow anaesthetised - like I had somehow lost the ability to love my own family, and to a greater extent God. It is probably because the depression & despair are lifting & for the first time in ages I can see & feel past my "self".