KEEPING IT REAL

I cannot stand liars, especially people who are fully aware of what they are doing. It must get to a point where they are ultimately living a lie - you lie enough about the little things it soon accumulates. I know a few people like this & I struggle to maintain freindships with them. I mean it's practically dellusional - and I'm supposed to be the one with mental health problems. It must be exhausting keeping track of all the fabrications, wouldn't it be nice to just tell the truth for a change never minding what others think?

Winston

"I don't like standing near the edge of a platform when an express train is passing through. I like to stand right back and if possible get a pillar between me and the train. I don't like to stand by the side of a ship and look down into the water. A second's action would end everything. A few drops of desperation." - Winston Churchill (1874-1965)

I understand perfectly Winston.

DID YOU FORGET TO TAKE YOUR MEDS?

I haven't been too well lately, blood results have shown that my Thyroid function is terribly low yet again which can explain why I've been feeling so tired with aches & pains over the last 2+ weeks. My mood hasn't been the best either - with little to no motivation most days. Nights have been a battle to get to sleep including one episode of halluciantions, something I haven't experienced for over a year. So what to do? - more medication! I am now on Duloxetine (SNRI) 120mg, Lithium (mood stabiliser) 500mg twice a day, & Olanzipine (antipsychotic) 5mg at night - & of course the 100mcg of Throxine for the thyroid problem. My psychiatrist is looking at changing the Olanzipine to Seroquel, something I'm all for as it apparently has less side effects.

I'm putting the call out to others who are being treated for Bipolar - do you have to take so much medication? Sometimes I feel like taking these meds is the equivallent of a frontal lobotomy, but then again what is the alternative?