I feel totally and utterly drained today. I had a dreadful nights sleep, waking up on more than one occasion in a lather of sweat. I had night terrors, violent dreams full of gore & a terrible sense of being “alone” - it probably has to do with my husband being away. I never sleep very well when he’s not beside me. In the mornings after a night like that I find it difficult to orientate myself & I feel so drained that it's almost an effort to breathe. I know that sounds ridiculous but it is as if my autonomic nervous system has been in overdrive & is now left fatigued & exhausted from the strain. Everything gets super sensitive too, it’s hard to explain – it’s almost like a myalgia, as if I’m coming down with the flu – an allodynia of sorts, but not. And it just sets the tone for the rest of the day, nothing seems right & all you see are the negatives. I will try to sleep well tonight, even if I have to take a benzo to suppress the REM sleep.
